8 days post transfer

Only 2 more days till my pregnancy test. I still have no clue what to expect. I'm very in the middle. I haven't allowed myself to get my hopes too high because if the test is negative, the let down is going to be huge. That doesn't mean I'm not optimistic though. Everyday I try to pay attention to what's going on with my body. There's just no way to know if what I feel is the hormones I'm taking or pregnancy symptoms. I felt twinges in my lower abdomen 2 days after embryo transfer. I could only wonder if it was embryo implantation, my ovaries getting back into shape, or plain old gas. I've been really tired since Saturday, but is that the estrogen I started taking on Friday? Or is it because I'm pregnant? My breasts are a little sore, but the estrogen and progesterone could definitely be causing that. There is one thing that really makes me wonder. Yesterday JP and I were out and about. It was the first day I've been out of the house since embryo transfer. We went to the library and Costco. Two different places, but when I walked into each place I smelled very strong distinct smells. It was so overbearing to me. JP who is normally very sensitive to strong smells, really didn't seem too bothered. I thought that was strange. He thinks it's because I'm pregnant and it's the one symptom that I really believe could be pregnancy symptom. So that gave me a boost of confidence.

Yesterday I finally had my last hormone injection! Yay! Both JP and I were so ready for the shots to end. Just in time too, because I just started getting these itchy hives on my butt where I was getting the shots. I had a blood test and when they got my results, they decided I didn't need anymore progesterone shots. I still take progesterone pills 4 times a day. I have had approximately 45 hormone injections since August 12th. I've had approximately 11 blood tests since August 12th and probably about half a dozen in the 5 months before that, including the full blood work up which they took 8 vials of blood. I've had 3 minor surgeries since January, all required anesthesia and those creepy IV needles, which have completely intstilled the needle-phobia in my head. Though my hormone injections are done I still have more blood tests to do. My poor veins, during yesterday's blood test, my vein actually collapsed! The blood just stopped coming out after about 1/4 vial off blood. So she took the needle out and had to start a new one in the other arm, Yikes! I guess my veins are saying they've had enough.

I feel like I've been training for a marathon and I'm now finally in the last mile to the finnish line. What an experience! JP was saying even if this doesn't work out, it was definitely an interesting experience and he is glad to have done it with me. Easy for him to say, I don't think he understands the pain of the needle! Joking aside, he's right, it's definitely been a bonding experience for us. At least now I know I can trust him to give me an injection.

Only 2 more days! whoohooo!