Another day and more pills

I started estradiol pills yesterday. Today I feel more swelling in my lower abdomen area. I don't know if it's the estrogen or pregnancy symptoms. It's feels a lot like the swelling right before a period. I believe it's my endometrium (uterus lining) building up. The progesterone and estrogen I'm taking is supposed to keep my uterus lining fit for the embryos rather than releasing it in a period. In a natural pregnancy, those hormones come naturally and the uterus lining builds up and sustains the embryos on it's own. My whole cycle was controlled by medications, so my body may not produce progesterone and estrogen on it's own to retain my lining and embryos.

I'm still feeling really positive. I think we are going to be hearing some good news next Friday. I just really have a 'feeling' about all this. I was thinking that If only one of these little one make it, I would be OK with that because then the likelihood of us giving our other embryos in waiting a chance to be born in the future would be greater. Does that make sense? I was kind of feeling guilty I guess, because suppose we do have twins, would we want to have more? If we didn't then the other little ones will be in limbo for who knows how long until they die. JP would really like to adopt too. Financially for us, it would be tough to raise 3 or 4 kids. Of course the cost of doing a FET would be expensive too. And now that we've done IVF our credit debt, not including our home loan, has doubled. It's just part of the price we are willing to pay so that we can have a child. I think that if we can pay off at least 80% of our medical loan within the next 2 years, we might be able to afford to do an FET with our embryos in waiting. We also have to factor in all the costs of a baby when it's born. We are doing fine financially, even though this is the slow season at JP's workplace. But, I was telling JP, we need to seriously nix any and all unnecessary spending starting now. Before IVF we were looking at furniture to buy for our house, but now I think most of that is going to be put on hold. Anyway we need to do some serious managing of our finances from now on. We both agree that if it ever comes to a point where we 'have' to sell our house, we would do it. I really hope it doesn't come to that though. I love our house and it's a great place to raise our kids. At this point I think we are going to be just fine.