This is it!

We are officially going through with IVF. Tomorrow at 8 AM I'll go in for a baseline ultrasound and blood test. My doctor will check out my follicles and hormone levels. If everything is right, then I'm able to start follicle stimulation via injections the same day, oh boy!! I admit I'm dreading it and can't wait to get started at the same time. Every shot I get brings me that much closer to getting preggers! I feel like I've been waiting my whole life for this. I really, really hope it works. If it doesn't work this time, we get one more chance. If it doesn't happen the second cycle I guess It wasn't meant to be. There's always adoption. Which we hope to do someday anyway.

This whole process is crazy to me! I can't believe I'm doing it. I have never been one to do so much as take an aspirin everytime I get a headache. I always have avoided taking drugs/medications whenever possible. This is the ultimate sacrifice and compromise of my life! It doesn't matter though... If I can have a baby, it will be worth it.

I have so much going through my head right now. I joined a few Fertility forums so I can converse with other women going through IVF. That has been really helpful for me emotionally and mentally. All the women are really supportive of each other. Our husbands are here for us, but they don't really know what is going through our heads and can't really understand what is happening with our bodies. It has been a real blessing to be a part of the forums. It's great to be able to talk to others going through the same experience as you. I recommend it for anyone going through something like this. It really helps to be in a good place mentally when doing this.

Ooooooooh YAY! My new MacBook just arrived! I have to go. I'll write more in a bit.